I Never Thought I Would Look This Way

I’m smaller now and have more lean muscle than when I was in college and in the military. 

Isn’t that crazy? I went to go try on jeans at my favorite store, TJ Maxx and I realized holy fucking shit I’m in a size 6. I haven’t been that small EVER. I could only ever get to a size 8 and I could never hold onto it. 

Like look, I long ago accepted the fact that I have an athletic build and inner thighs that will always touch and a booty and I’m good with it. I like that I’m strong, I like that I look strong and most importantly I like that I feel strong.

I just was a little shocked by this revelation. Partly because I don’t own a scale so I have NO idea how much I weight and partly because I never buy clothes that aren’t workout related so I had ZERO idea what size I was even in.

And you know what? I still drink wine and eat chocolate. Know what else? I won’t cut either of those or whiskey out unless I have a medical necessity to do so.

You know how I got to this point of being smaller at 35 than when I was 20?

Healthy decisions 95% of the time. I wish it was more complicated, like I was delivering to you the location of the Fountain of Youth but it’s not. It’s that simple.

Healthy decisions. Healthy decisions when it comes to what I shove in my face, healthy decisions when I comes to how I move my body and healthy decisions when it comes to where my head is at.

I’ve tweaked things that didn’t work, I’ve changed up things that weren’t giving me a result and as a result of those changes, I’ve seen changes. I’m totally here for it.

Not just because I feel amazing but also because I know that the healthier I am, the happier I am, thus the more effectively I can serve my community and the better off my life will be in the long run.

I’ll still eat my pizza, sometimes with a cauliflower crust, sometimes not, but I won’t beat myself up either way because I know that regardless I’m making the right choice the majority of the time.